Technicality

And by soul I mean camera. 

little dark girl with 
kind eyes 
when it comes time to 
use the knife 
I won’t flinch and 
I won’t blame 
you, 
as I drive along the shore alone 
as the palms wave, 
the ugly heavy palms, 
as the living does not arrive 
as the dead do not leave, 
I won’t blame you, 
instead 
I will remember the kisses 
our lips raw with love 
and how you gave me 
everything you had 
and how I 
offered you what was left of 
me, 
and I will remember your small room 
the feel of you 
the light in the window 
your records 
your books
our morning coffee 
our noons our nights 
our bodies spilled together 
sleeping 
the tiny flowing currents 
immediate and forever 
your leg my leg 
your arm my arm 
your smile and the warmth 
of you 
who made me laugh 
again. 
little dark girl with kind eyes 
you have no 
knife. the knife is 
mine and I won’t use it 
yet. 

-Charles Bukowski.

Inhale. You are alive in this precise moment. Do you feel alive? Or do you just know that you are? I don’t know why but I always want to stay awake until sunrise and though I am nearly always still awake when the sun rises, I always fail to see it for some reason or another. I am always on the road at sunset, and I see it and wonder if it looks that beautiful everywhere else. I believe it does. The sun sets on the day, I watch it go and know that there is another day to change something I don’t like, another day of chance, another day of choice, another day to feel alive. The sun sets and acts as a reminder that a terrible day, no matter how long it seems will soon end and you can move on. The sun it sets and acts as a reminder, no matter how unbelievably amazing your day was, all good things come to an end. But the end of those good things do not have to end as long as you can remember happiness is a state of mind. You have the complete power to make your day ‘good’ or ‘bad.’ Tragedies happen, but you can decide to overcome, to keep breathing, to pace yourself, remind yourself you will only live once, and carry on. Remind yourself those dark times will pass. Remind yourself that you love beautiful people, beautiful souls. Remind yourself we are all enigmas. We say things we don’t mean, we hurt people we didn’t want to hurt, and they will do the same. At the end of the day, you still know that you love them. Accept that people will come and go, and accept people will pass away and they can only remain a soon-distant, yet loving memory forever encased in your heart. We are so small, yet so large. We are powerful, and some become tyrants, and some go unnoticed. Notice someone today, give someone a hug, smile at a stranger. Use your power for good. And keep pushing forward. Exhale.